Thank you Judith!
It is very helpful and a good insight.
I am actually feeling I'm at the end of a cycle here...yes, the number is right, I feel one third of the way there!
I'm ready to terminate this cycle that has been sooo heavy...
I' ready to "take off"...
I don't think that person (the man) has anything to do with it, other than reaffirming to me what kind of man I am looking for or is right for me?
Hm, maybe that's another subject...

But in walking life as you say, my fertility is quite a problem as I am very very fertile...always has been...it's not a problem right now because I'm not doing anything (at all!!) that could lead me to a pregnancy (i wish, not the pregnancy but the ways to get there haha).
If I may add, I've always been amazed that my own only sister cannot have children of her own (she has two but was medically assisted) and I, on the other hand, can just get pregnant so easily...
Anyway, thank you so much for your reply!
S.